Every day at least one police officer commits suicide because they suffer from PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder). Some think there's no alternative to their choice, while others are afraid of losing their job if they admit they need some time off and some professional help. They're too ashamed or embarrassed to talk to their friends or family about whatever it is that's bothering them. Many police officers begin to think of themselves as weak or washed up if they can't handle the stress and, because they feel they can no longer do their job, they think everyone else would be better off without them.
     Before doing anything drastic, please think about this - you're not the only person within the law enforcement community who's feeling this way. There are alternatives, you're just too emotionally upset to think. You need to talk to someone. Whether that person is your partner, captain, department psychologist, best friend, spouse, chaplain (or other religious leader), or next door neighbor . . . talk to someone you can trust and who has never led you in the wrong direction. You're going to find out a lot of people understand and want to help you.
     Generally, a person doesn't get so stressed out they automatically turn to suicide. There are warning signs that build over time. The best time to get help is when you first notice something isn't right. Note: not all of the signs and symptoms I've listed have to be present to indicate PTSD. Also, there may be some I missed.

Signs and symptoms of PTSD

Physical:	chest pain, fatigue, headaches, insomnia, loss of appetite, nightmares, pounding heart, teeth grinding
Behavioral:	anti-social tendencies, drug use or abuse, emotional outbursts, increased consumption of alcohol, loss of interest in activities such as hobbies, pacing, paranoia, restlessness, withdrawal
Emotional:	agitation, anxiety, apprehension, denial, depression, fear, guilt, intense anger, irritability, thoughts of suicide

     Don't ever think you're immune from PTSD. Whether you're a rookie patrolman or a seasoned veteran, the stress can and most likely will get to you at some point in your career. All it takes is one situation for which you thought you were prepared but weren't and you start having the nightmares. Seek help as soon as the signs and symptoms appear, not when it finally gets to the point you feel like killing yourself.
     PTSD effects everyone, not just the person who is suffering from the disorder. Many of the outward behavioral and emotional signs can be aimed at anyone around the officer. If you notice any of the signs and symptoms, try to get the person to talk to you. If they won't talk to you, convince them to talk to someone else. Don't take their word for it that they'll get help, make sure they get it.